I never thought the day would come that Lil’ Wayne would be inspiring my writing. But, the day has come, and as I have been learning time and time again, sometimes my best learning moments come from the (very, very) unexpected places (such is the case tonight, with the lyrics from a rapper prompting me to share these words on my mind).
So, how exactly did Lil’ Wayne prompt this? Well, to start, I recently rediscovered “How to Love” and have been listening to the song on repeat. Naturally, as I jam out to this tune on my daily walks, I have started to sit with the words that are sung, and most specifically, this set of lyrics:
“For a second you were here, now you over there
It’s hard not to stare, the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love”
The more and more I sang these words, the more the meaning behind them resonated deeply with me. This story he speaks of is one I am not naive to; an experience of trying to seek and earn the love we desire.
And so, today, I ask you this: Are you trying to earn the love you desire?
Lil’ Wayne, in this musical masterpiece, is implying that this woman is moving the way she is because she believes this is how she will attract love. Whether or not this is true, it has opened my eyes to this phenomena, particularly amongst girls and women; one of believing that if we could just look better or show more or be more, that we would attract the kind of love we are looking for. And don’t get me wrong, I’m all for breaking it down on the dance floor and a lil’ hips don’t lie action, but I believe it is so crucial we ask ourselves the why…
Am I choosing to dance like this to get *insert name’s* attention, or am I confident in my femininity and want to soak up this moment by breaking it down on the dance floor? Do I want to wear this makeup because I feel beautiful and glowing with it on, or because I want to look “better” to attract *insert name’s* attention and make myself worthy? Am I posting this because I want *insert name* to notice, or because this moment is full of joy or exudes confidence and I want to share?
I, too, have to ask myself these questions often. Because I’m realizing time and time again that it is my power as a woman to decide to embrace the love I know I deserve, not because of how I dress or how I dance or how much skin I show, but because of my innate worthiness, independent of anything I could do or produce or show. And in embracing the love I know I deserve, I no longer desire to do things solely to try to attract the attention of someone or something that may give me a love conditional on what I’m wearing or how I look or how I’m moving or whatever it might be that is not a determinant of my worthiness.
You are already so loved. How I wish that I could just sit down in front of whoever you may be reading this and remind you that despite how you may be feeling today or the number of people who seem to care or the way you look or your success or anything that the world will try to tell you equates to the value you carry, you are so loved. Wear that bikini and dance your booty off (if you want, of course!), but do it because you already love yourself, not because you are trying to earn the love you deserve. And finally, embrace the Love that is available to you always… you are so worthy of it. <3
xx
Always,
Elle