Like many of you, I read the news about Kobe Bryant, his sweet daughter, and the other passengers who died this past Sunday with a broken heart. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking & praying & reflecting… just trying to understand how life could be so fleeting; gone in the blink of an eye. These people were so loved and cherished and have made such impact on this world.
I’m writing this post at my dorm room desk with tears streaming down my face… my heart so badly hoping that someone reads this and it changes his or her life. Today I’m writing about “one day”.
I used to be an extremely guarded person. If I’m being honest, it is my natural inclination to put walls up and show people all the good & seemingly perfect things going on and keep the hard things to myself. I’ll work and work and work on something until I can nearly perfect it, and only then will I share it with the world. Everyday, I have to fight this natural inclination of mine and choose the path of bravery and vulnerability. Maybe you, like me, feel sometimes like you’re walking through life in a “safety” zone; in a place that is comfortable and doesn’t risk hurt or failure or any of the hard things. But you guys, this path of always doing what’s comfortable and safe is not fully living. Coming from the once queen of guarded, I’m preaching to both myself and you that life is so much sweeter and full when we take the walls down.
When I heard the news earlier this week, I had a moment of tremendous clarity. I had a moment where I realized that my life is happening right in front of me and if I don’t consciously choose the path of bravery and courage, I may get to a day that’s my last and wonder what could have been. Could I have fulfilled that dream of mine if I wasn’t so scared of what those people thought of me? Could I have taken a leap of faith in that area of my life and risked it all? The “coulds” continued on & on until I decided to sit down and write this post.
Life is not guaranteed. I try to be the most uplifting and positive person possible but today I had a moment of this reality. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. If you knew you wouldn’t have tomorrow, what would you do today? Who would you call, what would you share with the world? Who would you tell you love them? How would you talk to yourself when you look in the mirror at your body that you’ve always critiqued? What leap of faith would you take?
We all have answers to those questions. But if I’m honest, sometimes I take for granted that I don’t have unlimited time to fulfill the things God has put on my heart to do in this world. I don’t have unlimited time to tell my people I love them, to hug them tight, to write & create and hopefully encourage people through how I live my life.
If you, like me, catch yourself thinking or saying “one day” to anything in your life, I want to encourage you to choose TODAY. Right now is all that is guaranteed. Start the blog, write the first chapter of the book, tell that person you love them, create something new, wear what you want, love your body and love yourself. Your life is worth far too much to let fear keep you from living in a state of waiting and wishing the time to go by so you can get to that “one day” where it finally all clicks and somehow you start living.
To whoever is reading this: you are SO IMPORTANT. Your life is so valuable. Let’s all choose the brave thing, the hard thing, the courageous thing. Let’s live– not tomorrow, but today.
Today is the “one day”. Let’s live, sweet friend.
xo
Always,
Elle